Ponderings
7. Acceptance
“I just want everyone around me to reach their fullest potential.”

ACCEPTANCE

I’ll be 100% up-front with you – I struggle with acceptance like a MOFO!

Why can’t I just control everything and everyone in my life?!?!?!?
I know what’s best for them. I promise 😂.

I’ve gotten better, but I’m still a work in progress.
In a perfect world, I’d accept people for who they are without judgment, curb knee jerk reactions, not react, and let things roll off my shoulder.
Oh, and not argue for the sake of being right. It’s okay to let people think they’re right when you know their wrong – even though it’s so hard to do.
Mastering the above is a serious superpower in life – personally and professionally.

I’m pretty good at this when it comes to strangers, acquaintances, friends, and most family.
In all honesty, there isn’t anything someone could say to me that’s truly fucked up. Unless the person is trying to be an asshole.

But, all bets are off when it comes to best friends and my immediate family for some reason.

I think it stems from the fact that my parents always pushed me really hard when I was growing up.
And in turn, I do the same with the people who are nearest and dearest to my heart. Ruthlessly, some times.

I just want everyone around me to reach their fullest potential.
So, I push. Like I was pushed when I was a little girl.

As I get older, I’m learning that acceptance isn’t linear. It’s ever changing and fluid.
Personally, I find it hard to accept those closest to me as they grow older and evolve.
Especially, if I once admired them and respected their decisions and no longer feel that way.
I can’t let it go, decide to remove myself from the equation, and in turn causes a serious strain on the relationship.

I don’t know what the right answer is. I’m hoping introspection, journaling, and time will sort it out.

I guess I still have a lot of growing to do. It feels hopeless and impossible at times.

And, I don’t want “fake” acceptance – constantly biting my tongue and stuffing my true feelings down.
I want true and authentic acceptance.

Am I alone in feeling this way?
Have you mastered acceptance?
If so, what tips and tricks can you share?

Your thoughts, feedback, and questions on acceptance are greatly appreciated.
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